18.3.12

Pursuit of Happyness


(Photo got from Tumblr. Thanks to the owner.)

I was preparing to sleep the other night when I suddenly realized that I hadn’t blogged for a long time 38 days to be exact. I miss my blog and I know you’re wondering what might have happened to me. So there we go. I’ve been busy. Hell busy.

You might be asking what I could be busy with. A new girlfriend? Hell nope. I wish I could still have time for that. A new hobby? No. A new “job”? Yes! And I’m happy.
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Coming in and out of post-college depression, the months leading to this week were a bit of a struggle for me. I’ve felt so unfocused with what I wanted to do in life. I just can’t seem to find the direction to where I’m headed. I was lost. I prayed for directions. Or signs. Or clues where to go.

In high school, I used to believe that I can get everything that I want to the point when I thought I could just sit quietly and wait things to fall in my lap. And I’m self-centered like that. But then, reality kicked in. At the end of 2011, I was beginning to think whether I should start following a different career track. Then my friends started getting their dream jobs. I can’t say I didn’t feel envy. Actually, I did. From there on, I started doubting, hating myself.

And then something hit me strong in the head (prolly my mom’s nagging). I could not just let insecurities swallow me. I could not just let my awesomeness fades away. And besides, sayang ang looks ko kung magiging tambay lang ako.

It was only the last week of February when I started sending resumes and stuffs and hoping that someone out there is willing to give me a job. Luckily, someone did. I now work as a nurse in a private hospital in our province. Needless to say, I have a made a decision to pursue my profession. When I accepted the job, I felt I was doing the right thing. I know you know the feeling of doing something you’re really passionate about – in my case, to help others and save lives. I felt infinite. Cheesy shit but true.

Life didn’t become any easier. But slowly, I’m starting to get a glimpse of what my life would be in the coming years. I may not exactly where I want to be but this is a start – a good start. I’m not proud of what I was (which was a total mess) a few months back but I’m not ashamed of it either. Life isn’t always peaches and cream. What separates the successful people from the unsuccessful is the ability to deal with life issues maturely, realizing that the hard times are learning opportunities and that’s what makes us wiser in the long run.

30 comments:

DearHiraya said...

I like how you ended this piece. Very inspiring. And so can relate. Can I just tweet that? Haha! :)

"What separates the successful people from the unsuccessful is the ability to deal with life issues maturely, realizing that the hard times are learning opportunities and that’s what makes us wiser in the long run."

DearHiraya said...

Arg! Crappy internet connection. Can you just delete the first two comments? I don't know how. Sorry. :(

Mei said...

Congrats for getting a job! Ako naman I've been busy looking for a company that would hire me as an intern. Luckily, meron naman. Hehe.

marxtermind said...

Cnograts for your job! :)

Gnetch said...

I haven't been blogging a lot lately, too. I've been really busy.

Congrats on the new job.

McRICH said...

congrats, so was it the reason you've been on hiatus lately?

ko rin malapit nang maghanap ng new job, waaah!

Hoobert the Awesome said...

Thanks Hiraya for the nice words. Gusto ko kasi na laging good note ang ending ng mga articles ko para everybody happy. :)))

Sure you can tweet that.

Hoobert the Awesome said...

Yay! Onga pala, nasa college ka pa rin. Hey, I`ve read yung problem. Grabe, nakaka-piss nga yung ganun. Hayaan mo, may string of good luck ang darating sa`yo.

Goodluck sa internship mo Mei. :)

Hoobert the Awesome said...

Thanks Ate Gnetch. Yeah, hell ang past two weeks ko. Sobrang haggard na nga. But I`m not complaining. Sobrang sarap din naman sa feeling na may ginagawa kang productive, no?

I`m really having a good time reading your posts. Wala lang, nakakatuwa.

Hoobert the Awesome said...

Thanks Marx!

Hoobert the Awesome said...

Hahaha. Bakit kuya McRich, ayaw mo na sa current job mo? Anyway, good luck sa job hunting. I`m sure pag-aagawan ka ng mga companies dyan sa UAE. Ikaw pa.

Sendo said...

ohhh..save lives !!! soon...i'll be back nursing lives... :) God bless sa trabaho mo

ThePinayWanderer said...

"I could not just let insecurities swallow me. I could not just let my awesomeness fades away." - I like your fighting spirit here, but I like this more:

"And besides, sayang ang looks ko kung magiging tambay lang ako." - haha, very nice, at korek naman, sayang ang looks, bawas pogi-points kapag tambay. Congrats for the new job Awesome Hoobert. :)

Chyng said...

so, when are you coming in manila?

Donnie Ray said...

nakibisita lang :)

talagang theme pa ng full house yung background music mo ha :D

blissfulguro said...

masaya na mahirap ang maka-graduate pero matinding transition yan...

good job on your new job (?!) hihi

welcome back hoobert :)

Sey said...

Yes life is not always peaches and cream and how we deal with life is just a matter of attitude.

Congrats for the job.

Malditang "Kura"cha said...

woot woot! so pano ba yan? ililibre mo na ko sa unang katas ng sweldo? hihihi! Congratulations enchong. I wish yan na talaga ang "calling" mo. hihihi! Ako kasi parang gusto ko pa rin mag shift ng career kahit tumatanda na ko. parang nakukulangan pa ko. Kaya enjoy mo lang yan habang bata ka. At buti naman nagbabalik loob ka na ulit. lol!

juneosidabenitez said...

oo..buti naman narealized mo na di ka na nagba blog..welcome back..

Hiyono said...

Oh that explains everything. Congratulations Hoob! I'm happy for you darling. God blessed you with such epiphany. Good job... and keep it up! ;) Make us proud... and yourself, of course.

Hoobert the Awesome said...

Yeah Sendo pero give time ka muna sa sarili mo to figure things out. Kung gusto mo i-pursue career mo or not. If you want to get it down, I graduated last March 2011 and guess when I had my first "job"? MARCH 2012 - a year after graduation. Imagine that!

Though medyo natagalan, ngayon I`m decided na talaga to pursue nursing. Hehe. Antagal ko bago nakapag-isip. :)

Thanks!

Hoobert the Awesome said...

Hahaha. Thanks Pinay Wanderer. Oo naman, wala naman yatang babaeng papatol sa isang tambay. Kahit gano pa yan ka-gwapo. Lololol. :>

Hoobert the Awesome said...

Hi Ate Chyng! I`ll just send you a pm. :)

Hoobert the Awesome said...

Hi Donnie Ray! Hahaha. Oo nga. Die hard fan ako ng Full House e. That`s why.

Hoobert the Awesome said...

Oo Blissful Guro, medyo mahirap nga mag-adjust. Pero kakayanin. I`m now in the company of cool and fun people. Kaya ayos! *thumbs up*

Hoobert the Awesome said...

Thanks Sey. Yes, it`s just a matter of attitude. :)

Hoobert the Awesome said...

Hahaha, oo sige. Pag punta mo dito sa November, ililibre kita. Basta mag-Calaguas tayo. Hahaha. Excited nako. Si Marx kasi.

Buti pa kayo nag-Mindanao pala. Hai. Selos ako. Lololol. :) Biro lang.

Bakit naman gusto mong mag-shift? Pero kahit san ka naman ilagay alam ko kering-keri mo. Hohoho. Walang biro.

Miss you Kura-ching.

Hoobert the Awesome said...

Hello Jun! It`s been a while a. I`ll visit your blog maya. :)

Hoobert the Awesome said...

Yeah Yono, I will make you proud! I miss you darling. :)

Allen said...

Good things come to those who wait....and work hard for it. COngrats jubert!

Mapalad ka, I have so many friends who are RNs na di padin nakakakuha ng job. They're stuck to being volunteers.

Wish you all the best! Keep us posted!