I filed only two college applications – both for public universities, University of the Philippines and Bicol University. I withdrew my application in my dream school, Ateneo de Manila University. As much as I hate to do it, coming from a lower middle-class family and the fact that my sisters were going into a private school my dream of being an “Atenista” isn’t possible.
Coming from a public high school, UPCAT is a must take for me. But I don’t remember being too psyched about it, well, except for the fact that I bought an UPCAT reviewer which I haven’t read that much. Who can blame me? I was too focused getting into that blue university and that whole UPCAT thing was just for ego-boosting purposes and the bragging right that I passed the “freaking mother-of-all-collegiate-entrance-tests.”
In high school, I considered Columbus and Magellan as gods so it’s a no-brainer that I wrote BS Geography as my first choice in the courses offered in UP-Diliman. AB History, second choice. I told you I was a nerd kiddo and boring. Then I probably wrote either BS Nursing or Communications whatever in my second college of choice – UP Manila.
I also filed a college application in Bicol University as Plan C if my applications in UP or AdMU didn’t work in my favor. And thank God I did. BS Nursing was my first choice then BS Education. Did you know that I dreamed of being a teacher in some point during my childhood years?
I didn’t go to UP (I missed the cut-off mark by just some points) or Ateneo de Manila but the thing I learned was every single soul has his own path in life. Don’t sweat yourself too much thinking of a clear career path when you are in high school – that’s partly what college is all about, discovering who you are and what you want to do in life.
I’m crossing fingers that you’ll forgive my indulgence to write and post this where everyone can be able to read this (yes, including my parents). Let’s just say, this is my own claim of public display of affection. I guess it will make me look mushy and lame to some people but I don’t even care, it’s the mushy guy that I am.
Never in my wildest and wettest dream did I ever, well, dream this would happen. I never expected to fall in love truly, madly, deeply so fast. Don’t get me wrong, I am a great believer of love-at-first-sight, yes I am. But I never thought I would be infected by the love bug that fast. The past months have been awesome. Has it really been four months? Wow. Time flies when you’re having so much fun.
You’re what I’ve been praying to God for the past five years - good-looking, smart, sweet, has sense of humor and a little bit “mayabang”. I love everything about you. All those weird little things that you do. And the way you make me blush every time you say “ang gwapo ng boyfriend ko”. It all amazes me. There is also a “you-and-me together” moment that I can’t help but love and cherish – remember the night when we spent time together under the rain? It was magical and so romantic that I never wanted it to end. When you told me that I’m the right one, I cannot tell how good that made me feels. I still don’t understand how an awesome guy like me would end up with an awesomer person like you. Well, there’s something called luck.
I’m not a perfect boyfriend but I’m trying to be one. You know that everything I’m doing now is not just for me, but for us, our future. The 500++ kilometers will not destroy us. I know we are strong enough to make it through. I have faith that in due time this will all come to an end and we will be together forever. For the time being, let us content ourselves with SMS, phone calls or the old-school love letters so we will feel like we’re together more often than we actually are. It’s not the same but it’s the closest thing that we can get.
I hope you never quit seeing how much my love for you is true. I’ve already told you that I love you, but I don’t mind doing it again. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you more than words could ever show and I know you love (well, adore is more fitting) me too.
Your Awesome Boyfriend
I’m surprised that “someone” actually created a fan page dedicated to Jake - the 13-year-old young man. I don't have any idea on what's the real intention of the page creator but I think the page will do more harm than good. Thought there’s a lot of people who expressed their genuine concerns and deepest condolences to the families, there are also a number of overly self-righteous Filipinos who out rightly judged and criticized the two young men without even knowing the whole story. Look, I am not defending Jake for what he has done. Nor I’m tolerating their relationship considering their age but c’mon can we at least give some respect to the souls of these young men and their families.
Some also brought up their sexuality – a nice sample of classic discrimination. NEWS FLASH: This incident can happen to any heterosexual couples out there. All along, I thought that sexual preference discrimination has subsided in the Philippines but it seems that I am wrong.
People might insist these as their own claim of freedom of speech – there’s no problem with that. In a democracy, everyone is free to express his opinion. But not all opinions are intended to help. Some, let’s just say, aimed to achieve more sinister results.
I had a “heated” argument the other day. I reacted to one of the posts (pictured above) of the page I’m subscribing to. I just want people to be more sensitive of the feelings of others. It is just an opinion, as good as anyone’s, but unfortunately it was given more credence than it should.
Also, let us stop this “hate” thing against the third sex. In the eyes of God, everyone is equal and everyone deserves to be love.
To Jake and Jonathan, you will surely be missed.