Breaking the ♥ of a friend

11:31 PM Saturday. Confession day. I was watching the gruesome "Texas Chainsaw Massacre" on Max last Friday night when I received a SMS from a very close friend. I thought it was just another forwarded message pulsing with cheese and corn (come on... you know what I mean) so I was surprised when I opened it...

Close friend: Still awake? Can I ask a question? You told us that you don't like [insert name here] but why is her picture in your wallet? She's in your profile pic too. Did you lie? Is she your girlfriend? I'm just asking. I just want to know.

It took me a while to reply. Questions started to flood my mind. Sheeze. Why is she asking? Is it a big deal for her? Yes, she's my friend but it's none of her business.

ME: One word "no". I'm not fond of attaching strings to my girl friends.

I lied. I once courted my high school bestfriend but it doesn't go anywhere. Maybe, I just realized that I'm not prepared to make the transition from friendship to something more.

Close friend: Sorry! I'm just asking. Good night.

ME: Ok. No problem.

Close friend: I just noticed that you like [insert name here] so much.

ME: It's just pure friendship and nothing else.

I'll admit that I had a crush on [insert name here] when we were still in first year college but I don't think that our relationship is ever going to be anything more than platonic so I stopped.

Close friend: Ok. That's good.

After a few minutes, she texted again. I wished she didn't because I'm not really comfortable in this kind of conversation evidenced by my brief replies.

Close friend: I have another question. If you're already asleep, just answer this tomorrow... you said di mo tinatalo mga girl friends mo, so, do you mean even me?!

ME: Yup.

Close friend: You knew that I like you, isn't it? Wala naman pala akong hinihintay sa'yo. But, don't worry. It's ok.

I was quite speechless. I don't know how to answer back. Yes, I already know that she has feelings for me even before she told me. I can tell because she's quite obvious. Actually, I got clues from her FB status --- she will always rant about this certain guy who is either, according to her, "numb or dumb". Now, she openly shared her feelings towards me but I don't know what to say.

ME: Sorry. (That's all I can say.)

Close friend: It's ok.

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I want to comfort her like what I'm doing every time she's sad and down but now, I don't know what to do... I don't know what to say. Obviously, I'm not prepared to handle such situation. I even ain't got a clue of what she feels right now. I just know that it's really quite frustrating when you have deep feelings for someone who you're just friends with.

But, I'll assure you guys that nothing will change after this. I'll keep things good between the two of us. She's a good friend. My life would just suck without her.

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ROCK ENROLL 6

It feels a bit disconsolate when it turns out that you're not yet finish with your academic clearance, the fact that classes in your school will resume in just two days. But, despite of this, I do not plan to excrete all my 'rants' about the dog-tiring registration process I have gone through. Maybe it's karma, a bad karma.

I'll admit that I've been a bad student during the first semester. In my own dictionary, bad is defined as " not preparing homeworks, not reviewing for exams and being terribly absent minded during class". I also have a not-so-good- record with the attendance particularly in Hum 1 (a 7:30 am class). You cannot blame me. It's not easy waking up early. But shucks, Professor [name withheld] is labeled 'notorious'. HEY! Don't quote me on that. It came from the higher years. I'm just quoting them.

But don't worry, I'm going to turn everything for the better. The behavior I've shown during the first semester is not on my plan this semester. From now on, I WILL MAKE IT RIGHT. Yeah! That's a promise. Of course, I'm tired of being a failure. LOL.

Well, anyway, I'm facing pretty gung-ho subjects. I've got NP2 (Cardiology), NP2 (Fluids and Electrolytes), NP2 (ABC/DN/ER), NP2 (Onco/CD), NP2 (Ortho-EENT), Asian Civilization with TN (Soc. Sci. 5), World Literature (Lit 2), Introduction to Research (RES 1) and Community Heath Development. I'm hoping to have good grades *fingers crossed* at the end of the semester.

That's all for now.

Have a Happy Second Semester, folks!

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Posted it again.

WARNING: Due to my hectic schedule, I can't update this blog until Monday next week. So, I'm leaving you with a repost.

BOYS do flirt (period)
Posted last February 13, 2009

Lower those eyebrows! Yes, boys flirt. Got a problem with that? If none, then SHUT UP!

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I don’t know why I’m annoyed every time this certain friend (let’s call her Ms. X) asked me the question “Why do boys flirt?”. Maybe because, she asked me this question a hundred times already (read as every time she see her boyfriend flirting with other girls… and this happens EVERYDAY. LOL). But, she never got a serious answer from me but if you considers “Get rid of him. Find another.” or “Do the same. Flirt with a guy.” a serious answer then OK.

I’m getting more serious so help me to work this out, ok? Ms. X uhhmm… and for the other girls too, remember that just because a boy has already a girlfriend, it doesn’t make him stop noticing other girls huh. It just happens that SOME boys are naturally born with the flirting gene. Maybe, he inherited it from is father or great great granddad. Hahaha.

Girls, don’t be too shallow, remember that like you boys wants to feel free even if they’re committed so they sometimes errr… FLIRT. I think it’s one way of fulfilling our need to be a bit naughty without actually being naughty. Come on, you know what I mean.

ANOTHER REASON WHY BOYS FLIRT. I know girls this is not new to you and you may forget about this. Sometimes boys flirt because we want to make you jealous especially if we see you fluttering your eyelids at other boys. We hate to see it, so we must do something. In that case, we're just fair.

But girls (boys too!), flirting can be sometimes meaningless... maybe sometimes your boyfriend (or girlfriend are just being TOO friendly. The stuffs that you consider flirting... can just be something else, you know.

I hope my dear Ms. X you understand all the talking blah blah blah... and PLEASE I'm begging you don't attempt to ask me that f****** question again. Do you get me?!

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It's Rio!

Finally, after 120 years since the birth of the Olympic Sports movement, the Games is coming to South America in 2016.

Thanks to Rio de Janeiro!

Last Friday midnight, while the others were already in deep sleep *snoars*, I was still awake and kicking in front of the boob tube waiting for the IOC announcement of which city will get the hosting rights of the Games of the XXXI Olympiad.

I channel-hopped (oops! sorry for the loss of words) from CNN to BBC, to Aljazeera. I was never been interested to the Olympics before or on any sports for that matter. In fact, I'm hopeless in every sports since I was a kid. LOL. Ok! Ok! Back to the Games...

There are four candidate cities to choose from. The four were shortlisted on June 04, 2008, becoming official candidates --- Chicago, Madrid, Tokyo and Rio de Janeiro.

Chicago 2016

Almost as dramatic as the identity of the 2016 winner was the process of the voting which saw how Chicago crashed and burned in the first round despite the Obama's last pitch. Many didn't expected, even I, that the American city will be eliminated early in the fight. Imagine, out of the 94 who voted in the initial round, only 18 went for Chicago. *stammers* What a humiliation?

Prior to the announcement, Chicago was the bookmakers favorite and was one of the two cities perceived as favorites to win the hosting rights.

Tokyo 2016

Tokyo's dream to host the Olympics for the second time was shattered after the second round. Honestly, among the four cities, Tokyo is my least favorite. Why? Because its bidding logo doesn't work for me. LOL. Yeah, true. It doesn't strike me or my eyes either. From a country that produces state-of-the-art, super wacky or out-of-the-box designs from cars to clothes, it disappointed me.

Though Tokyo's bid stressed on an eco-friendly Games, youth involvement and solid financial guarantees *$$$*, their words just fell on the stony ground after they got 20 votes in the second round. I think, Tokyo suffered from rotation of continents philosophy.

Madrid 2016

The Spanish capital was well-beaten in the final round, getting just 32 of the 98 votes. That meant second consecutive defeat for Madrid which also had bid in vain for 2012. Madrid earned high during the application phase and being a highly recognized national capital is a plus factor. However, like in Tokyo's case, Madrid may have also suffered from rotation of continents philosophy. Take note that Europe will be the venue of the next two Olympics, the 2012 London Olympics and the 2014 Sochi Olympics.

Rio 2016

I love Rio, it's my bet after Madrid, but I still doubt if they can deliver a good Olympics. Why did I said so?

1. The Games has never been to South America before putting the Latinos' capabilities to pull a good show in question

2. Among the four candidates, Rio de Janeiro has the most infrastructure works to do

3. Rio's high crime rate

4. Financial security - Brazil will also staged the World Cup Finals just a mere two years before 2016

But, Rio de Janeiro has still 7 years to prepare. I hope they can pull a wonder and make the 2016 Olympics a big, brash and flamboyant show that the people of the world could possibly hope for.

:|.poOt!