24.11.09

23 Days of Dark Age


I was really overwhelmed by the response of my co-bloggers on my entry, "STATUS: Confuse". I was really glad to read their advices- upright advices, mind you. Somehow, it made me realize what to do --- make sure of my feelings first before jumping into any conclusions.

But, the advice that made me think is Kuya Ax's. He said "Give yourself time. We have this so-called Dark Age Era. Go back after 28 days. Then, that's the time to ask yourself if you love her or not". Surprisingly, the Dark Age Era idea was supported by Kuya Shatter. He said "You need space. Both you and your friend. You're always together... If after spending time apart, and the affection still grows then I guess you have to rethink your motto na walang taluhan". I thought about it for a night but, sad to say, I TRASHED the idea because I think it is not necessary.

A day passed. I was shocked when the close friend I was talking about left a comment on the same entry.

28 days?? I think it's the best thing to do now. I can't pretend when I'm with you. It's hard.

28 days starts now... Walang pansinan. No communication. No everything. 23 days to go before my birthday. That would be enough. 23 days only, patawad na ang 5 days kay Kuya Ax. I'll miss you. This is hard, 'tol.

S***! All this time, she was reading my blog. Uncool! I feel so naked. LOL.

10:24 PM Saturday. I was walking to the dormitory where I stay when I received a SMS from Close friend.

Close friend: Have you read my comment in your blog?

ME: Yup. Why?

Close friend: I assume you understand what I said there, don't you?

ME: Yup. Why?

Close friend: Do you agree? We BOTH need time and space.

ME: No way! haha. (And I can still laugh ha.)

Close friend: But, we need it, both of us. We're confused.

ME: Basta, it cannot be. Avoiding each other is not the solution. Let us just save the friendship. That's what we need to do - nothing MORE, nothing LESS. *wink*

Close friend: Why? I know you can do it and I know I can, I think. Let me move on please.

I arrived at the dormitory. They're watching "Jennifer's Body". (Ahh. Megan Fox made me salivate.) I sat beside her and in a low voice, I said to her "Ang drama mo". She didn't replied back. And, I realized that it isn't appropriate for me to said that. Bad jubert, bad!

After the movie, I went straight to my room and she went to hers on the next floor. As I was preparing myself to sleep, I received another SMS from her.

Close friend: Ano payag ka na?

ME: Hindi nga. bleh!

Close friend: Bakit ba kasi ayaw mo?

ME: ?

Close friend: Can you please take this seriously? Nahihirapan na din kasi ako. You're making me fall for you much deeper.

ME: Naks naman! OK. On the serious note: I'm not doing anything to make you fall for me.

Close friend: Sa tingin mo wala pero meron. So, give me a little space. Please.

ME: You're up there and I'm down here. Isn't that space, a BIG space?

I hate myself. I can still punch corny jokes in serious situations like this.

Close friend: Bahala ka nga dyan. Basta, we need to do what Kuya Ax had said.

ME: No way!

Close friend: I just want to clear everything. I need to do it and I'll do it.

ME: OK, but I will not avoid you in any means. Understood?

Close friend: You'll just embarass yourself. You said you're confused then, take a break.

September 21 (11:50 PM) - Start of my "23 days of Dark Age"


Urgh. I'm so PISSED off with myself. I said that I will not avoid her but now, I see myself taking one step away. I hate to do it but she thinks it's the best thing to do for now, to give her a little space. I do not own her. Like what Kuya Shatter said "She is single, and therefore, she can associate herself with anyone she has fancy for".


Basta, what I know is that 21 days from now, my own Dark Age ends.


:|.poOt!

52 comments:

pinkdiaries said...

base muna..

pinkdiaries said...

wow! hang kulit! hhehe, if you are confused bakit ginagawa mu pang mas complicated lahat?! hays.. dont know what to say!

dont think too much! keep safe!

Ax said...

23 Days is enough. Most people use the 28-day experiment because that is the total days of a month. No, not 31. We have 7 days in a week, and 4 weeks in a month. So, hindi talaga kulang kulang ang mga pinanganak ng February. Haha.

Well, hoping that you find your answers after the 23rd of reflection. Wag ka mandadaya ha, dapat talaga focus ka sa 23 days. Pag-isipan mo at pagnilay-nilayan mo!

at syempre, goodluck!

Alkapon said...

ang kulit mong bata ka. he he he

ShatterShards said...

Kaya mo yan. 23 days isn't such a long time, but it's enough to gather your thoughts. And I think she needs it more than you think. But you need it more than her, you just don't want to admit it.

Basyon said...

23 days is enough to think all the things that you need to. At cguro nmn eh pwd na rin ung time na yun para kay friend mo. ;D At sana mapag-isipan mo ng mabuti ang mga dapt at tamang isagut sa malaking katanungan na yan hehe. Good luck!

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PUSANG-kalye said...

basta--believe in the power of isolation---and most of all. believe in your friendship. kahitr walng pansinan yan, you will find your level again and everything will just fall back to place. believe.

ANIMUS said...

23 days...
i think it's enough jub.
just think abwt this:sometimes we have this fear of lettin someone know how we feel. I mean, just be true to what you think and feelGoodluck...;]

blak3nwayt said...

ayos! hakhak! ang kulit mo pa rin bumanat eh noh. ang seryoso na ni close friend pero banat ka pa rin talaga ah! hahaha! apir tayo dyan!

pero pucha! nababasa niya blog mo! wow! parang ako ang ninyerbyos dun ah! sobraaa! buti na lang nga't umalis na ako sa dati kong lungga! transformation men! haakhak!

anyways! balitaan mo ako kung ano na nangyari ah! hakhak!

geb0i said...

my heart really goes out with you.. You're in a risky situation. You might lose your friendship with your "friend"(or hmm.. ?) kung pababayaan mo yan. Ang hirap naman nyan. I have been through the same situation way back in my highschool days(mas risky nga lang kasi it was my bestfriend) but I was able to handle it with care. (LOL) I just realized back then that only the truth will set us free so the only advice that I could give was be true to your self as always. ^^ geb0i

ShatterShards said...

Umm... Just so it's out of the bag: Close Friend, if you're reading this blog, I'm telling you now, that's cheating. The 23 days of no contact and communication includes this blog, so bye bye, for now.

Chyng said...

your close friend is doing the right thing. Guarding her feelings *winks*

.pOot! said...

hi ate pink!

yeah. i should not over analyze things. right?

anyways, the good news is BASE ka!

.pOot! said...

hi kuya ax!

pramis. hinding hindi ako mandadaya. haha.

sa ngayon, (5th day), wala pa. di ko naman kasi masyadong iniisip yun. bahala na. hehe.

.pOot! said...

hi kuya alkapon!

makulit ba? bakit naman? behave na behave nga ako eh. :)

.pOot! said...

hi kuya shatter!

"you need it more than her, you just don't want to admit it." --- ks

uhmmm... i don't think so. to be honest, i just want to forget this whole thing... it's crazy.

.pOot! said...

hi ate basyon!

thanks!

btw, say hi for me to baby av. *wink*

.pOot! said...

hi kuya pusa!

sana nga. mawala na ang lahat, wag lang mawala yung friendship. yun lang naman ang gusto ko. :) hehe.

salamat sa pagdaan.

.pOot! said...

hi mark!

thank you.

.pOot! said...

hi blak!

ayos ba? ayoko ko kasi ng masyadong seyoso esp. if i'm not into the conversation. haha. PEACE!

wag ka kasing palainom ng kape kasi talagang ninenerbiyosin ka.// haha.

bye 'tol. i'll keep you posted.

.pOot! said...

hi gervs!

thanks 'tol. i remember, nung niligawan ko yung bestfriend ko nung high school... haha... the result BASTED. nyek. ampucha!

basta ang motto ko ngayon "save the friendship" --- nothing MORE & nothing LESS. :)

.pOot! said...

hi kuya shatter!

haha. NICE one there kuya. // yeah. close friend, if you're reading this, you're CHEATING. bleh!

.pOot! said...

hi ate chyng!

uhmmm... maybe.

.pOot! said...

guys!

sorry kung medyo wala ako sa mood to reply to your comments. i'm just tired so my apologies.

XOXO.

Nash said...

why not gave her time kasi? That's all she's asking for.

Maybe she needs time to think about the situation

hayyy boys nga naman LOL :))

ANIMUS said...

yun nga ginawa ko..kaya im ok now..nadadala pala yun sa tulog!:]hehe

Allen said...

why make it 23 kung kaya mo naman pag-isipan overnight? The question is simple. Do you want to pursue her or not?

Think about what's holding you back and analyze if its really worth it.

Hindi mo naman kelangan mahalin yung taong liligawan mo kaagad. You could start to love her along the way diba? Di na kelangan ng iwas iwas effect pa. :)

sows said...

hmm, mitchell fox..eiiiwww...

seriously, sna maging ok ng lahat..



lets see wat space and silence can do for a shouting "inlove" heart.. (hope it'll not burst fart but love..)


sows!!!

Ax said...

before i forgot, don't think too much.

it will spoil everything. just continue the normal-everyday routine.

Random Student said...

honestly tanda na ko to be reading your SMS conversation with the close friend, but i still read it and it left a smile on my face. natawa ako kasi di ko kinaya ang sweetness haha!

taympers said...

23 days? kaya mo kaya bata? ayan napacomment tuloy ako. hahahaha

.pOot! said...

hi kuya nash!

you're back. it's nice to hear from you again. it's been long since your last visit here.

anyway, i'm giving her the time now. 23 days to think, to analyze things over. if she really loves me or what.

---> at first, i was really hesitant about this "Dark Age" idea. for me, avoiding her is the last thing to do. hindi ko kasi alam kung after nitong 23 days ay babalik sa normal ang lahat. for sure, there will be a GAP. and for the first few days, magiging awkward kami sa isa't isa. hai.

.pOot! said...

hi animus!

nice! nice! nice!

sige lang matulog ka lang. hehe! :)

.pOot! said...

hi allen!

i beg to disagree parekoy. one night is not enough for pete's sake.

//: as you can see, she's my friend. so, i need time to think, to decide. i just don't want to jump into conclusions na pagsisisihan ko sa huli.

Hindi mo naman kelangan mahalin yung taong liligawan mo kaagad. You could start to love her along the way diba? ---> dude, not to me. before i court someone, i make sure that my feelings for her are for real. paano kung di ko siya natutunang mahalin? lalabas na pinaasa ko lang siya. in that way, i will hurt her more.

.pOot! said...

hi sows!

who's mitchell fox? haha.

LET'S SEE.

and btw, i'm not inlove. that's for sure.

.pOot! said...

hi kuya ax!

yah, kuya ax. no need to say it.

everything is normal except for the fact that we are avoiding each other. haha. but everything is just fine.

.pOot! said...

hi kuya random!

really? remember that in love, AGE doesn't matter! *wink*

"natawa ako kasi di ko kinaya ang sweetness haha!"

---> sweet ba? hindi kaya. for me, it's pulsing with corn. in tagalog, corny. haha.

.pOot! said...

hi kuya taympers!

OO naman. kaya ko tanda.

hehe.

dencios said...

kuya .poot,

cute ng conversation haha

tandaan: wag madaliin ang mga bagay2 ha.

decide wisely my friend

K.noizki said...

This will be your "story" when you get a little older like me, it's simple - stop listening to "heartache" music, haha.

"....eventhough we fall apart, you're right beside me in my heart. don't you know my love is real.. for you. you should know by now... this much is true... my love is here for you...."

I like Erik Santos' music, yung may gusto syang sabihin pero walang balls to say it on a girls face..

.pOot! said...

hi kuya dencios!

kuya ka dyan. haha!

.pOot! said...

hi kuya K!

i like his sounds too. it's something i can relate to. haha.

Anonymous said...

shit..ang ganda ng song..

hi poot..alam ko nahihirapan ka na din..pareho lang kayo...nagseselos na din yun sakin pag sinasamahan kita,,one time she texted me na pinagpapalit ko na sya sayo..hehe..i love her i love you...kaya gusto kong hatiin time ko sainyo. hindi mo na siya pwede pakialaman tulad ng dati..hehe..like yung mga damit na pinagsusuot niya..ang bisyo nya..di mo na siya pwedeng pagsabihan nun ngayon...hehe..
i think may sasabihin na siya sakin tomorrow about sa lovelife nya...kung ano man yun, i hope di yun makaapekto sa *pagninilay nilay* mo..hehe...sabihin mo sa kanya kung ano talga jubert sa december 13..hehe/..

>afer that day bday ko na din...gift ko..hehe...andaya mo la kang gift samin dati..hmmmmp...di kapa nag attend...

>goodluck poot..kaya mo yan...malapit na...

>malapit narin kaming tumanda..s***..hehe

> namimiss ko na yung time na kayong dalawa kasama ko, yung happy moments nating tatlo....lagi nga kayong nagkikita pero parang wala naman..:'(

Fr. Felmar Castrodes Fiel, SVD said...

december 1 na...

may part two pa ito di ba?

blurosebluguy said...

wooooooowowow...nahuli ako friend.....bisi ang kua blu...so ano na?

Mr. Nonsense said...

distracting naman yung post mo sa ibaba....galeng ng pictures!

Mr. Nonsense said...

si ax pala ang expert sa larangan ng pag-ibig. pero bakit 28 days at hindi 30 or 31. bakit tuwing leap year lang ba ito?

pinkdiaries said...

merry xmass!! :-)

.pOot! said...

hi father fiel!

uhmmm... pagiisipan ko pa. haha. as of now, wala pang interesting na nangyari pero ang sabi ni j__, sinagot na daw ni Close friend yung suitor niya. // di man lang pinatapos yung dark age days. hehe.

so, what for pa 'tong 23 days nato?

.pOot! said...

hi kuya blu!

oo nga kuya. mukhang bising-busy ka pero at least, na-appreciate ko naman na talagang dumaan ka pa dito. // THANKS!

no developments yet. i'll just keep you posted. :)

.pOot! said...

hi mr. nonsense!

distracting ba? ang seseksi no. haha.

here is kuya ax' explanation about having 28 days of dark age and not 31: "most people use the 28-day experiment because that is the total days of a month. no, not 31. we have 7 days in a week, and 4 weeks in a month."

// THANKS kuya sa pagdaan.

.pOot! said...

hi ate pink!

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

BOOM TARAT TARAT!

haha.