S***! I can't understand myself. I told her that I don't love her, that I only see her as a close friend. But, why does I feel jealous every time she's fluttering her eyelids to this "guy-from-outer-space"... oops! I mean this "guy-from-other-course"? I can see na masyado siyang kinikilig. And it's breaking my heart.
Last Thursday night, me and Close friend's roommate, J__, were texting. I confided to her this bizaare feeling that I just felt recently towards our friend. And I can tell that she's in the mood to talk possibly evidenced by her upright answers to my questions. She even presented to me these three theories:
1. Maybe you are jealous because you were used na ikaw lang ang lalaki sa buhay niya.
2. Maybe you are jealous because you know that she loves you but now it seems that she's shifting her attention to someone else.
3. Maybe you are jealous because you also like her.
As of now, I don't know what to answer. I'm still totally confuse. Just give me enough time.
***This post is shoddy for Pete's sake. What's happening to me? Can you please punt me in the head to bring myself back into consciousness?