11:31 PM Saturday. Confession day. I was watching the gruesome "Texas Chainsaw Massacre" on Max last Friday night when I received a SMS from a very close friend. I thought it was just another forwarded message pulsing with cheese and corn (come on... you know what I mean) so I was surprised when I opened it...
Close friend: Still awake? Can I ask a question? You told us that you don't like [insert name here] but why is her picture in your wallet? She's in your profile pic too. Did you lie? Is she your girlfriend? I'm just asking. I just want to know.
It took me a while to reply. Questions started to flood my mind. Sheeze. Why is she asking? Is it a big deal for her? Yes, she's my friend but it's none of her business.
ME: One word "no". I'm not fond of attaching strings to my girl friends.
I lied. I once courted my high school bestfriend but it doesn't go anywhere. Maybe, I just realized that I'm not prepared to make the transition from friendship to something more.
Close friend: Sorry! I'm just asking. Good night.
ME: Ok. No problem.
Close friend: I just noticed that you like [insert name here] so much.
ME: It's just pure friendship and nothing else.
I'll admit that I had a crush on [insert name here] when we were still in first year college but I don't think that our relationship is ever going to be anything more than platonic so I stopped.
Close friend: Ok. That's good.
After a few minutes, she texted again. I wished she didn't because I'm not really comfortable in this kind of conversation evidenced by my brief replies.
Close friend: I have another question. If you're already asleep, just answer this tomorrow... you said di mo tinatalo mga girl friends mo, so, do you mean even me?!
ME: Yup.
Close friend: You knew that I like you, isn't it? Wala naman pala akong hinihintay sa'yo. But, don't worry. It's ok.
I was quite speechless. I don't know how to answer back. Yes, I already know that she has feelings for me even before she told me. I can tell because she's quite obvious. Actually, I got clues from her FB status --- she will always rant about this certain guy who is either, according to her, "numb or dumb". Now, she openly shared her feelings towards me but I don't know what to say.
ME: Sorry. (That's all I can say.)
Close friend: It's ok.
***
I want to comfort her like what I'm doing every time she's sad and down but now, I don't know what to do... I don't know what to say. Obviously, I'm not prepared to handle such situation. I even ain't got a clue of what she feels right now. I just know that it's really quite frustrating when you have deep feelings for someone who you're just friends with.
But, I'll assure you guys that nothing will change after this. I'll keep things good between the two of us. She's a good friend. My life would just suck without her.
:|.poOt!
But, I'll assure you guys that nothing will change after this. I'll keep things good between the two of us. She's a good friend. My life would just suck without her.
:|.poOt!
81 comments:
Vase ba? Ehehe...
Ay, base pala! Wahahaha...
Basa mode!
hi kuya kurog!
lagi kang first base ah. hehe. laging OL.
2nd base c tito...yay!!
ayayay!! naku patay tayo dyan...hahaha but seriously i found it too awkward kapag yung girl pa yung nagiinitiate sa mga ganitong mga bagay bagay..hala!
gudluck na lang parekoy! madaling sabihin na everything wud still be the same after ng nangyari...
life goes on. for you. for her? it remains to be seen. at least in regard with you that is. that girl's got guts. no disrespect but she's got a pe#%@. i think she'll be fine after stating that coz if she managed to pull through with asking you about such stuff, then she'll have no problem dealing with other emotional stuff.
mjo liberated yang friend mo n yn ah. in my case kc mas mabuti pang ibaon ko na s hukay ang crushness on d hws ko wg lng malaman..alin b ang mas gus2 niong mga lalake, ung expressive or ung sobrang timid?
hmm..lalo ba kitang binigyan ng problema? :lol:
wat im trying to stressed here is dat ders individual differences. ders olweiz 1 thing dat a person is unique among others..dun s ng confessed sau, she might've been a person hu wnted to say wat she mean and vice versa..
dun s 4mer crush mo na friend mo rin, ul never know unless tinry mong ligawan xa..puro kc tau, "wat ifs" eh di kung tinry mo, mssbi mong, "at least.."
-nakatulong b ko? feeling ko hnd.
haha..
wooohh..o diba..sweet talaga ng muka mo behbeh...dami na iinlab sayo^^
neway, bilib naman ako sa kanya.. ang tapang nyang sabihin yun..ako kasi di ko yun kaya:)
nakakatuwa yung mga ganung tao na nagmamahal na walang hinihintay and kayang i-risk ang lahat ma-ilabas lang nila ang feelings nila:)
kung di mo talaga sya gusto..tama lang yung sinabi mo sa kanya agad at least alam nyang hindi sya aasa..at tama ka rin na hindi nagbago tingin mo sa kanya:)
sana ganyan ka sa lahat ng girls^^
wow! ang haba ng hair mo, ha? Girl pa talaga ang humahabol sayo! LOL!
I'm not an expert on this subject, but I'll try.
I admire your friend's bluntness. (If I were that girl, I could have taken bottles of "courage" drink before I'd be able to do that. hahaha!) Well, at least she tried, and now she's knows your answer. For sure, she now feels "free"; she doesn't have to lie to you. It's good that you answered her directly. I just hoped that it's the way you feel...that you don't really love her and not because you're afraid of change...that you have been used to what your relationship was and afraid that you might just ruin your shared relationship with her when she was just you friend.
Don't be guilty that you broke her heart. She chose to know the truth, (truth hurts) and I think she prepared for that before asking you.
Pangalawang balik ko na to sa post na to pero di ko pa nabasa,.. Ehe...
Maya ko na babasahin... Enjoyin ko muna music sa blog mo! Ehehehe....
whew..iba na talaga pag magandang lalaki.naks.hehe
on a serious note,kung frens kayo,mas magandang frens lang talaga..it's also good that you did not take advantage of that situation.
kudos. :D
Wuaaaa..Hala ka jan fren. haha Nakmaxado palang prangka ang fren moh noh. hehe. Pero alam moh i admire those girls na kayang sabihing ang true feelings nila for the boys. Kasi parang ang hirap umamin ng pagmamahal sa isang lalake ng isang girl. Pero madaling sabihin na magiging ok din ang lahat after that, but i do hope so na magiging ok nga. Naranasan koh narin kasi ang ganyan, naku ang hirap. Mag-kaibigan sa una pero ayun nagka-inlaban na haha. Pero palagay koh kaya moh yan hehe. ;D
April
Stories from a Teenage Mom
Chronicles of a Hermit
Mom on the Run
hay,we're gettin older na tlga jub.
before..we ARE just contented of having playmates to laugh with..but now?it's a diffrent story.hay.
Ang hirap talaga kapag kaibigan mo ang gusto mo o nagkakagusto sa'yo.
ang tapang ng girl na magtapat sa yo regarding sa isang bagay na something serious.
perhaps its just natural for us guys to feel like that. I also admire your bravery na sabihin sa kanya staight ung totoo. but this is your punchline:
"But, I'll assure you guys that nothing will change after this. I'll keep things good between the two of us. She's a good friend. My life would just suck without her."
i can sense that while it hurts for her, she will also be strong enough to handle the situation.
good boy! you are on the right track. sabi nga ni bro sa may bukas pa: "18. “Nakakapagbigay ng kalayaan ang katotohanan. Yun nga lang, marami ang hindi handang sabihin ito sa mga taong mahal nila, mga taong ayaw nilang saktan. Habang hindi sila naglalakas ng loob na sabihin ang katotohanan, hindi nila napapalaya ang mga taong mahal nila. Kahit na masakit ay kailangan itong marinig. “
God bless you poot +
Poot, akala ko ba may malaki kang problema? Seems wala naman talaga! Aw.
Well, when you replied for a 'no,' she needed to be harsher in answering that big 'no.' but she said 'it's ok.' As much as I do not want to believe it also, we have to.
Pero alam mo, sumabit ka sa isang bagay. Yung sinabi mong hindi mo tinatalo yung mga girl friends mo. Napakalawak ng hinaharap. Di natin alam kung anong pwedeng mangyari.
Pero since sabi mo, naniniwala ako sa'yo! Hehe.
Aw.
hi tito arsean!
haha. yah. second base ka po. lolz. pero ala talagang makakatalo kay kuya kurog. hehe.//
i really didn't expected that she will be too honest with me. kung ako yun, siguro itinago ko na lang nararamdaman ko kasi i don't want to jeopardize our friendship. in other words, i don't have the balls, she has. lolz.
oo nga po. i try na hindi mailang sa kanya. so, i still spend my free moments in her room (we stay in the same dorm)pero di na kagaya ng dati na very sweet ako sa kanya. baka kasi mabigyan niya ng kulay at umasa. kawawa naman!
hi kuya random! (sorry po di ko pa alam name mo)
i hope that she will be fine. i've been with this girl since we entered college (she's my closest college buddy actually), so i know that she's a fighter. hindi siya yung tipo na magmumukmuk sa tabi. pero hindi ko alam kung ano ang pwedeng mangyari ngayon... tsk. tsk. that's my problem now.
i don't want to avoid her. it's not her fault if she fell for me.
hi sows!
i think di naman siya ganun ka-liberated. she's still a maria-clara type in the way she move and think. siguro, she just wanted to express what she feels. maybe, it will give her relief.
---> alin b ang mas gus2 niong mga lalake, ung expressive or ung sobrang timid?
like what you said there are individual differences. nasa lalaki na yan. if i will be asked, siyempre mas gusto ko yung semi-timid (or semi-expressive). basta yun yun. lolz. naguluhan yata ako sa sinabi ko.
btw, yeah, puro kasi ako "what ifs". sumusuko agad ako even before i try. ayoko ko na kasi ng failure. nagsasawa na ako. lolz.
uy... sows. salamat sa advice ha. it really helped.
hi ate stormy!
sweet ba? *blushes* di naman siguro. nagkataon lang.
i admire her bravery to open her feelings with me. the only problem is, i'm starting to be "ilang" sa kanya and vice versa.
kaya nga sinabi ko agad sa kanya para di na siya umasa. ayaw ko rin naman kasi siyang saktan. at least ngayon, she can start to move on. pero di ba sabi nila, para maka-move on daw ang isang tao eh kelangan niyang iwasan yung naging sanhi ng emo-ness niya. so it doesn't mean na kelangan niya akong iwasan? tsk. tsk. thats not good. i don't want to lose the friendship.
hi ate celyne!
you said you're are not an expert in this subject. sheeze. you're good! applause applause.
oo nga. sana ngayon na nailabas na niya yung nararamdaman niya towards me eh sana gumaan na yung pakiramdam niya. at least, she doesn't need to pretend when i'm around.
shucks! flirt pa naman ako. lolz. kaya babawasa ko yun if we're together. baka sabihan niya, pinagseselos ko siya.
pero hanggang "friends" lang talaga kami... good friends that's it... nothing more, nothing less.
hi kuya kurog!
haha. di mo pa rin nababasa? alam ko na reason mo, english kasi. lolz. biro lang. hinihintay ko na yung mala-nobela mong comment na siguradong matatagalan ako sa pagbabasa. hehe.
hi pareng rye!
mas magandang lalaki ka... lolz.
oo naman. di naman ako yung tipo na will take advantage in this kind of situation. // kahit na ganun, i still respect her. and sa part ko, walang nagbago. ewan ko lang sa kanya.
Naks naman! At ikaw pa talaga ang nililigawan ng babae! Bow na ako sa iyo! hehe
But I agree with your move. With these things, you have to be harsh and to the point. Nipping it in the bud would hurt, but at least you didn't prolong her suffering.
But be prepared for the cold shoulder as she licks her wounds. Don't force the friendship on her, as it might be mistaken for adding insult to injury.
hi ate basyon!
oo nga. kung sa lalaki, di siya torpe. she expresses what she feels and that's good for some.
oo nga ate. i expect na babalik din sa dati nag lahat. pero ngayon nagkakailangan pa. later this evening she texted me, "mahal mo ba? not as friend." di ko alam ang isasagot ko. i just replied "lasing ka na". ayaw ko naman kasing sabihin na "no". i'll be rude if i do that.
hi mark!
yeah. right. haha. nakakatawa. dati nugnugin pa tayo. ngayon, we'll all grown up.
dati sakit lang ng sugat at palo ang iniinda natin. ngayon, puso na. haiz. bukas, sakit na ng atay, bituka, dugo... lolz.
hi kuya tripper!
oo nga. tama ka dyan.
hi father fiel!
i felt guilty after nung ginawa ko.
a part of me tells me that i'm wrong kasi nasaktan ko siya pero a part tells me that i did the right thing "to tell her that i don't love her more than just being friends".
pero i think prepared siya sa pwedeng maging resulta ng pagtatapat niya. but she's still my friend. in my part, nothing will change. ako pa rin yung jubert na nakilala niya.
hi kuya ax!
maybe you're right. i know she'll be fine. she have too. di naman ako ganun ka-gwapo o ganun katalino para iyakan niya.
haha. sorry kung pinressure kita na pumunta dito. // na-exaggerate ko lang. lolz.
hi kuya shattershards!
medyo dinugo ako dun. lolz. biro lang.
kahit naman sinong babae, di ko naman magagawa na paasahin. sino ba naman ako para gawin yun?
kanina kasama ko siya sa school, parang walang nangyari. we shared on the same umbrella. we laugh. we talk. we eat together. the usual things we do.
pero ngayong hapon, niyaya niya akong uminom kasama ng mga barkada namin. but i politely declined. i reasoned out na may binabasa ako. ang totoo, ayaw ko kasi alam ko kung ano ang pwedeng mangyari. baka di niya makontrol sarili niya.
hirap nga nyan parekoy kasi friend mo sya,.....pero somehow mabuti na rin yun para di naman sya umasa sa yo....hirap lang talaga..hayssss...
hi kuya blu!
akala ko kuya blu noong una di ako mahihirapan. nasabi ko na rin naman sa kanya na hanggang friends lang talaga kami. akala ko babalik na sa dati. pero hindi pala. oo magkasama kami pero nararamdaman ko pa rin na may gap between us. nahihiya din akong mag-reach out 'coz i don't know how to.
salamat po sa pagdaan.
Sandali, tama ba yung nabasa ko? May nag-iinuman ng Lunes ng gabi? E diba start na ng 2nd Sem? Panalo! haha! (ayan tuloy, lumalabas na naman yung pagka-geek ko)
hi kuya shattershards!
opo. simula na po nung klase ng ibang course sa amin. yung BSN, sa wednesday pa. haha. dito naman kasi kahit tanghali basta ma-tripan. pero ako, i rarely drink.
Reading your post reminds me of those teeny TV series on TFC, not that there's anything wrong with it. Have you talked to her yet?
It is really hard if it is just a one-way affection and it is harder if it is a friend. ;-)
I appreciate your straightforwardness towards your feelings about her. Kasi may ibang lalakwe dyan na basta may gusto sa kanya kahit hindi niya gusto, go lang ng go.
Dapat sa ganitong mga bagay talaga, walang umaasa basta walang nagpapaasa. Mahirap kaya ang umasa.
hola. pwede po pa xlink?
hehe.onga eh.katawa lang.
hi kuya nomad!
yeah we're talking but not about of what happened. i'm being casual with her, para di niya isipin na iniiwasan ko siya. pero di na ako ganun ka-sweet towards her ngayon compared on the past. and i noticed na medyo naiilang na rin siya.
hi ate reesie!
it's really hard. i don't want to hurt her but i also don't want to make her wait for nothing. so i had no choice but to be tact about my feelings for her.
hi mary!
thanks for dropping by. :) have a nice day.
hi mark!
sinabi mo pa. lolz.
...kasi poot, people really misunderstood your bahavior..kahit ako...though shes your closest friend you have to put some limitations. You cant blame her, at first when she said that she has something for you i mean she felt something for you, di na ako nagulat... meron na kasi yun dati pa..but then, nawala nalang kasi bigla kang umiwas nang di namin alam ang dahilan..(actually alam na pala namin...nagyong taon lang) toinks ka..hehe..makikinig ka di mo pa tatapusin..ayan tuloy!
*back to the topic*
makakamove on din yun...kaw lang kasi andito....taz super close kayo...she just need someone who could love her more than a friend taz andito ka...giving her so much attention...basta alam mo ang gusto kong sabihin...hehe..
try ko bring back everything..(though mejo la namang nagbago...)
kasi sa sarili mo poot though sinabi mo sa blog mo na lang magbabago, you know deep in you na meron....
i love you both,..
wlang mawawala...hehe
hi anonymous na kilala ko! (pangalanan kita?)
talaga dati pa yun?
// alam ko nahihirapan ka rin kahit papano kasi naiipit ka sa amin. pero thank you kasi andyan ka lagi. 'kaw na lang kumausap. ok?
love you. btw, good luck. malapit na ang "JUDGEMENT DAY". lolz.
tsaka jubert puro ka friendship!hmP!!!!
hehe..
yeah..
nahihirapan ako sainyo..
weeh...thanks pala...i hope i can do it...
kung hindi man...hala kayong dalawa nalang maiiwan..
basta wag mo siya papabayaan ah..mahal ko yun..
*oo dati pa yun...first year pa ata..nagulat ako dati pero ngayon di na...*
hi ulit anonymous!
siyempre naman. batang-bata pa kasi ako. ika nga nila "may gatas pa ako sa labi". lolz.
hi anonymous!
(ginawa nating chatbox ang comment box ko.lolz)
kaya mo yan. ikaw pa.
pero kung di ka palarin (which i doubt), ako ang bahala sa kanya. don't worry!
Oppoturnity does not knock, then knock again, and then leave a note saying, "sorry i missed you" kaya think about it. If you feel she's the one, then go for it. Kung san ka maging masaya e dun k na
Kaya mo yan fren. Bsta try to talk to her na normal sya, i mean ung di sya lasing. ;D Para maintindihan nya na hndi kayo para sa isat-isa para sa ngayon. Dahil di ntin alam ang mangyayari bukas db?! ;D Cguro just tell her na hayaan nalang muna ang panahon kung magiging kayo o maiin-love krin sa knya balang araw. Just enjoy what you have and what you are going through now, and that's your friendship. ;D God bles you and your friend. ;D
April
Stories from a Teenage Mom
Chronicles of a Hermit
Mom on the Run
Sagutin mo na kac pakipot ka pa eh jijiji joke!!!...Anyways,thanks for dropping by my blog...keep visiting!
it's better to say no kesa naman paasahin sa wala... :P
hello poot musta na?
hi geboi!
musta? napadaan ka ulit. lolz. long time no chat ah. mukhang busy na sa studies. hehe.
di ko alam. ang alam ko lang ngayon, wala talaga. lolz.
hi ate basyon!
di ko alam ate kung makakausap ko siya ng masinsinan about dun. ni di ko na nga yun ino-open sa mga usapan. medyo naiilang kasi ako at di ako masyadong comfortable. hehe.
siguro, i should take "courage pills" first. haha.
hi jag!
sige 'tol. makakaasa ka. //
hi ate dhyoy!
yun nga po ang inisip ko kasi lalo siyang masasaktan kung patatagalin ko tapos sa huli "no" din naman magiging sagot ko. haiz.
eto po. ok lang. bukas start na naman ng klase namin kaya medyo bawas bloghop muna. hehe.
Sows! Yun lang!?!
Ahaha... Alam mo friend, hindi kasi dapat pinag-uusapan sa SMS yan...
Sa text kasi, di mo alam kung anong nararamdaman ng kausap mo. Sorry ka tuloy ng sorry...
Minsan di ka mapakali kung hindi makapag-reply yung kausap mo. Feeling mo galit siya, offended o kung anoman...
Wahahaha... Ewan...
May masabi lang!
hi kuya kurog!
ganun ba. haha. expert ka talaga sa mga ganitong usapan no. hai. hehe.
.poOt!, sama ka?
Read this... http://allenyuonline.com/?page_id=219
hi kuya kurog!
asa pa naman. sana kung sa christmas vacatio yan baka makapunta ako. ngayon di pwede. at saka malayo kaya ako. toinks ka!
// pero gustong-gusto kong sumama. siyempre mag-eenjoy na ako sa show tapos mag-eenjoy pa ako sa company ng mga bloggers. hehe. shit! kaka-inggit. pero keep me posted with pictures. haha
sows! ano ba naman yung lumuwas galing albay diba? Ahahaha!
haha...magpari ka!
teen years talaga ay puno ng akward moments. i wont tell u what i would do dahil part yan ng growing up. but the last thing u want to do is ignore her...
remember, magkaibigan kayo.
i cant help but flash an impish smile while reading this and a couple of your entries below.. crap, how i wish i cud go back a couple of years back and relive those emotions.. they gave heartaches and headaches all in one whip, but what the heck, enjoy the ride.. there's no perfect formula on how you deal with moments like this, make sure you learn from it and have a blast doin so..
- hmmm villar? no comment. ahahahahahaha!!!!
hello, paramdam lang... i like the song!!!!
Hala, baka it's okay lang sa kanya pero ang totoo umiyak yun sa reply mo. hehehe. Ang text kasi madaling pindotin pero hindi natin nakikita ang real reaction. Pero saludo ako sa katapangan ng close friend mo. Siguro kung hindi niya nailabas at pinaalam sau ang naramdaman niya towards baka puputok ang puso niya at lalo siyang umasa. at least nagkaalaman. Saludo rin ako sau dahil naging totoo ka sa sarili lalo na sa kanya.
Mabuti na rin yung nagkakaliwanagan kaysa naman magbigay ka ng isang bagay na panghahawakan niya tapos in reality wala naman pala.
Bilib ako sa inyong dalawa!
hi kuya kurog!
baliw ka talaga. hehe. pero shit, gustong-gusto kong pumunta. grrrr...
hi mr. nonsense!
opo. makakaasa ka. why would i avoid her for the first place? we are friends. and nothing can destroy that. // :)
thanks po.
hi the last jedi!
thanks sa pagdaan.// haha. ang buhay teenager nga naman, ang sarap balik-balikan. kaya nga ayaw kong tumanda. lolz.
hi ate pink!
yeah. nakaka-inlove ang song na 'to. this is a duet between denise laurel and kris lawrence. ampucha! this made denise hotter. lolz.
hi refresh!
new here, right?
di ko alam kung umiyak siya. pero ok na kami ngayon. YIPEE! medyo bumalik na sa dati. away-bati na ulit kami. at balik na rin ako sa dating gawain ko: ang asarin siya. hehe.
hi kuya tripper!
yun nga ang gusto ko kasi at least malinaw na ang lahat between the two of us. wala ng magpapa-asa at wala ng aasa. //
well said poot!
kahanga-hanga pa rin ang iyong ginawa.
You know, while i was reading your blog about this close friend, i remember my best friend, the same thing happened to us, i liked him so much and i confessed to him via text message, he also did the same thing that you have done, and i also replied that im fine., but really im hurting so badly and i started to cry.. i started to avoid him since then..
Some of the bloogers said on their comments that after nyang maisabi sayo ung feelings niya towards you, she will be ok. but i think not, if you notice that she is starting to avoid you, talk to her dont hesitate, there is still something that you should know, there is still things that needs clarification.
Before she could move on, all of her feelings and sentiment should be open to you,. try to talk to her, you will both be feeling a little awkward together if the thing is not yet solved or cleared. believe me, I've been on that path before.
Until now, my best friend and i are still not talking because we didn't had the chance for clearing things.
Don't do the same mistake my best friend did.
hi father fiel!
salamat po.
hi anonymous!
care to introduce yourself? //
sorry for my politeness. lol
call me gabbie,.
hi gabbie!
no, it's ok.
// nice name for a girl. lolz.
its actually gabriella, but i prefer to be called as gabbie...
btw, how's your closefriend?
have you talked?
hi gabbie!
she's fine. but we haven't talked yet about sa nangyari. pero lagi kaming magkasama. actually, kasama ko siya ngayon. hehe!
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